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Let me start off by saying guys are HORRIBLE at picking up hints. I really wanna hang out with Matt for New Years Eve so I can make out with him at the strike of 12, but he's obviously not realizing that's what I want to do. Sooo, he's hanging out with his friends and I'm probably going to my grandma's. My grandfather isn't doing well right now at all. I've been in denial about his health for so long. I just have it in my head that he's this invincible person who is going to live forever. I can't imagine my life without him. My grandparents practically raised me. They used to live next door to me and I always spent the night with them. They really had a big part of raising me considering I spent most of my childhood with them. I don't have many memories of being with my mom when I was a child but I have so many of my grandfather and I. He bought us both a horse so we could ride around his land together. I remember riding around on his four wheeler as a kid and being so nervous I was going to fall off, but I knew Papa would never let anything happen to me. Saturday afternoons in the summer consisted of naps in the hammock between these two big pecan trees in the backyard. In my world there was no such thing as being a Daddy's girl. I was always 'Papa's girl'. You could argue with me all day long but I know that I have the coolest grandfather in the world. He still acts like a kid sometimes and I love that about him. He always tells the best stories and something he does is always making me laugh. Anyone who has ever met my grandfather has fallen in love with his witty personality. My roommate from my freshman year of college spent one weekend with me & my grandparents and said he's someone she'll never forget. He can make a friend like nobody I've ever seen. The nurses at the hospital can't help but love him. In case I have acted cold towards you lately, maybe now you'll understand why. It's so hard to sit around trying to cope with the fact that you may be losing someone who means the world to you. There's no easy way to react to that. I feel like I'm going to lose him, but I just can't. He's one of the most important people in the world to me, and nobody could ever mean more than that.


OH YEAH, AND I FUCKIN LOVE JOCEY SO MUCH !
After all the shit, I can definitely say that's my ride or die chickenhead bitch.
If none of that bullshit affected our friendship, nothing can.
BRING IT ON, DICKFUCKIN' FAG.