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I sat there one night,
Trying to think of ways to let you know how I feel.
I couldn’t possibly tell you face to face.
I really wish you would just wake up
It’s so plainly obvious that I love you,
Most everyone knows, but you can’t see.
Then again,
You don’t see how I fall apart
When I don’t see you or hear your voice.
I wish I could just tell you how I feel,
But I’m so afraid you’ll simply brush me off, say you don’t feel the same.
Or even worse, say nothing at all.
Every time I see you with her,
I get a sharp pain in my chest,
Like someone twisting a knife deep inside me.
I can’t help wondering,
Do you long for her as I long for you?
Do you just wish there was no fear of rejection?
I do, and it’s just so overwhelming,
I feel completely and utterly subsumed by this mere thought,
Not to mention how things would change once you knew.
But sometimes, when it’s just us,
It almost seems like you feel for her and I the same way.
It’s probably just a trick of my heart,
But I can’t help hoping, wishing, praying that its true.
If only there was some sort of guarantee
That you wouldn’t say no,
And that you felt the same about me
As I do you.
But there isn’t.
And it seems so unfair,
It’s just something that I’ll have to get used to.
I wish I could just tell you
“I love you”,
But I’m so afraid of rejection
That whenever I make up my mind to tell you,
I can’t.
The words seem to get stuck in my throat.
So maybe you could help me out,
And make it a little more clear,
Instead of sending out these mixed messages.
Just help me understand how you feel,
Because I know,
I love you.